Today, I wanted to take a few minutes to look back to write about some of my favorite days of 2011, but as I started looking back, and thinking back, I couldn't really think of anything that anyone but me, would find all that exciting.
The truth is, 2011 was an amazing year for me. It was full of simple, fulfilling days as a mother, a wife, a daughter, and a friend. It was full of homemade baby food, and spending all day in pajamas. I spent many fun days at the pool with friends and our kids. I spent some fun days at the park watching Addison learn how to climb, swing and slide. A lot of days were at home cleaning up messes and making messes and learning new recipes that may or may not have been a hit with the husband! I changed a lot of diapers, more than I can count. I took a lot of pictures of my kid, and probably a few of yours too. I had some fun weekends with the hubs camping or visiting the ATL. Y'all know I love that place. And there were a lot of days of pinching pennies, because my husband is gracious enough to provide for our family and allow me to stay home with Addison. That makes the penny-pinching totally worth it. This year, in a word, was full of ordinary.
If you asked me 10 years ago, if I would ever want the year that I just described, I probably would have said, 'heck no!'. My ambitions were all about career and big dreams of traveling and writing books and going to big cities. My heart was mostly selfish, and still is, really, but graciously, our Heavenly Father knew, even before I did, what a beautiful extraordinary day would really look like for me in 2011. He knew that my heart would be for my family. He knew that I would LOVE to just be a mom and a wife. No career, no travel or book or big city, could bring me the joy that I have being Matt Wright's wife and Addison's mom. Thank goodness, I trusted God with my heart, instead of trusting my deceitful heart to lead me astray.
As I think about 2012, I have a few aspirations, although, I dare not make any resolutions!
I hope I'll be slow to speak and quick to listen.
I hope to play more and clean less!
I hope to sacrifice more and be content with less!
I hope to trade some bad habits for some better ones, like spend less and pray more!
I hope to take less pictures, and live more beautiful moments!
I hope my dreams become less about me and more about what I can do for others.
I hope to see how blessed I am, and work harder to bless others.
I'm sure you've heard the term, 20/20 hindsight. I've been thinking about the past lately, and there's a lot of things that I would change. I can pinpoint many instances and I think I could have made some better decisions; decisions that would have left me in a better place now. But, we can't always see clearly through our heart-lens, fogged with deceit and selfish desires. Only when we look back without that selfish bias, can we see, what would have served us better.
May we all resolve to stop trusting our selfish, sinful hearts to lead us, and trust God with our hearts. He will not lead us astray!